Our deepest fear is not because we feel inadequate our deepest fear is that we are pwerful beyond measure

1st training session back

First session back last night, damn your fitness just vanishes I thought I’d be able to keep on top on it a little bit through rowing and weights but damn I am behind on my fitness.

Don’t get me wrong I absolutely loved being back I’ve missed that feeling you get as the muscles in the body scream and beg for oxygen as your chest and heart fight to give the body what it desires and pleads for.

I don’t know how I managed to fight as each opponent stepped out to meet me in the middle I seemed to be dragged from end of the room to another and then bounced all along the room. I need to practice I need more….I need to be stronger.

Do what you want to do today as tommorow it might be illegal

Intro 2012

I wanna get things straight from the get go the only reason why I am doing this is because my flat mate is always encouraging me to try new things, not that I don’t any way and I’ve never tried one of these blogging sites, if this is a blog site, I’m not sure If I even know what a blog is. But she’s normally write about trying the new things thing.

I’m not going to sit here and say yip yip yay 2012 is going to be my year but at the same time I’m not going to be a fucking “I hate my life and why should 2012 change that” kind of person either. No because four years ago my hope was that 2012 was going to be my year I rely did want to be competing in these next olympics coming up as I am sure thousands if not millions of other sportsmen and women were and still are. But at the time I was on track to possibly do it. I realise now that I am older and a little wiser that was a unrealistsic goal considering where I come from and how I got to that point, I am not saying I’ve had it hard because I havn’t and even if I did I would not hide behind that and say thats the soul reason I’m not in the place I want to be and blah blah blah because I’d be just making excuses because at the end of the day it comes down to me and me alone, I had alot of support from my family and I thank them for that each and every member but like I said it’s down to me to get up in the morning early and put the hours in no one else can do that for me, and that’s the beuty of hopes and dreams you can chase them and they can be caught.

Yes I’m not in the position I had hoped to be in life and I havn’t got to where I want to be….ye. Don’t get me wrong life is good at the moment I’m at uni and I’ve got some kickass flat mates but this is not exactly how it was planned.  Any way enough bitching about that because 2012 is the year that I get back on my feet and re-start that journey to perfecting what I love doing and to hopefully take it to the biggest sports fest in the world.